I just went to the gallery of my very first art senpai, TheBourgyman
and it was suuuch and experience. I used to think the guy was a god and some years and a school semester later, I'm still impressed by his art but it isn't in the "HOW DOES THE DO THAT?!?!!?" way and more in the "no seriously how does he do that? let's ask him" way.
i'm pretty sure I'm just going to silently stalk this guy for the rest of my life popping once in a while in his inbox to ask questions about art or something. it was one of my roles in the universe.